Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Mid-Service Conference

Peace Corps experience is such an interesting thing. Everyone has an idea of what Peace Corps is, and honestly I have a much easier time explaining my Peace Corps service to people than explaining the NGOs I have worked with, because Peace Corps has name recognition around the world. But at the same time, no two Peace Corps Volunteers' experience is the same, even if they are in the same country, program, or even site.

This week, my cohort - M32 - had our Mid-Service Conference in Chisinau. The last of the cohort before us has COSed now (finished their service), and we are now in the second half of ours. We spent the time discussing goals and hopes for the second half of our service, and it's strange to realize that we are on the downhill slope now. We also had a Q&A time with the new cohort (M33) who are now about a week away from finishing PST and being sworn in as Peace Corps Volunteers. They will swear in exactly one year after my cohort did. One of the main things we emphasized to them is that each of their experiences will be different, and not to try to compare.

I have been reflecting on my first year in Moldova and in Peace Corps. I have been practicing Romanian because we took an LPI exam during the conference to get a benchmark of our language level. I've been thinking about what I'd still like to accomplish before I leave Moldova. And I have been thinking about how it will feel to leave Moldova. I can't quite visualize it yet. But one of my goals by the end of my service here was to be sad to leave, and I am sure that I will be. I am happy with some of the projects I have been involved in, but hope to be able to work with my counterparts to do more projects that will make a positive difference in our community. I am happy that I finally feel somewhat confident in my language skills, but still hope to improve a lot more before I leave Moldova.

And then I have started thinking about what might come after my service here in Moldova. Honestly, although there have been a lot of challenges, that is one of the reasons I joined Peace Corps. I wanted to be challenged and grow. I have. And I want more of this type of experience. I don't know yet what will come next, but for now I am glad to have another year in Moldova.


Wednesday, June 13, 2018

English books!

This week, the American Resource Center at Biblioteca Publica Raională "Andrei Ciurunga" in Cahul received a shipment of books from Darien Book Aid in the U.S. We are so grateful to have more books in English for our community members to read, and they came just in time for summer reading!

Darien Book Aid is a wonderful non-profit organization that has made a big difference around the world:

"In existence since 1949, Darien Book Aid is a non-profit, all volunteer organization that builds a foundation of peace, understanding, and friendship through the free distribution of books. Book Aid sends books in response to specific requests from Peace Corps volunteers, libraries and schools all over the world. Books are also donated to libraries, prisons, hospitals, and Native American and Appalachian groups in the United States."

If you would like to donate to support the efforts of Darien Book Aid to provide books to community that want them, you can find information on their website: http://www.darienbookaid.org


THANK YOU! MULȚUMESC! СПАСИБО!





Saturday, June 9, 2018

One year in

My cohort of M32s arrived in Moldova a year ago, on June 7, 2017. I remember that I was exhausted, and was wearing my Seattle spring-weather lightweight wool dress pants in 90+ degree humid Moldovan summer heat and just wanted a cool shower and to sleep. To be honest, I don't remember much else about that day. We were met at the Chisinau airport by some M31s with welcome signs, and then had to wait forever because some people's luggage didn't make it. Then we loaded onto busses and were driven to a resort where there was food and some info/meeting sessions. Eventually, I did get to go to sleep and I was grateful.

The few days that we were at the resort were a blessing so we could adjust to the time zone and to Moldova. I know we had language lessons and ate fresh cherries. I didn't spend a lot of time talking to my fellow PCTs (Peace Corps Trainees; you're not considered a PCV until after you swear in at the end of PST), because I just needed the time to recover from exhaustion (not only from the journey to Moldova, but also from the sleep deprivation for the previous several months job hunting, preparing for departure, and working two jobs). I would have loved to spend more time with everyone before we were split up into our respective training sites, but at this point in my life I also know when I need to rest and I try to do a better job of taking the time that I need. Anyway, here we are a year later and I am trying to reflect on all that has happened during this year.

I was sick for a long time this year, beginning during PST. I think my body was just reacting to all the stress it endured in the process of getting me here, and then to the actual environmental changes. It was extremely frustrating to not feel well and be exhausted all the time, and made it very hard to get motivated to work on projects or study Romanian. I feel like I've finally turned a corner, healthwise, and I feel good most days. It's very freeing and I feel much more energetic to work on projects and be active in my community. I also just had my first pedicure and my second haircut since I left the U.S. Those seem like simple or even silly things, but they help me feel more like myself again (and required foreign language confidence that I didn't have for a long time).

I feel somewhat confident about my Romanian language skills at this point. They are not perfect by any means, but more often than not I can understand what people are saying if I concentrate. In the past few weeks, I have been able to do some errands and talk to locals without feeling nervous or miscommunicating, which feels like a huge win! I am able to have good conversations with my host family now, and even joke with them. I have somewhat adjusted to the heat here, so although I do still feel hot and sweat, I don't actually feel like I am going to melt (although it's only June, so ask me again in August! haha). I still hope to improve my grammar, and also verb conjugation. I've also been trying to learn a bit of Russian. The words that are similar to Bosnian/Croatian/Serbian are relatively easy for me to pick up, which is nice.

Of course I still wish, probably like many PCVs, that I had a bunch of amazing and successful projects to show for myself. But, you can only do what you can do. I'm trying to be ok with slow, steady progress. I'm very proud of my Technovation team, and hope to work with another team next year. I feel like our English clubs that my site mate Okxy and I have at the children's library have been going well. I'm really happy that the youth English club has a service learning component now, as the participants are translating the descriptions of the items at our town's historical museum into English. I still have high hopes  for the documentary/communication club, but it has been delayed. Hopefully, we will be able to start it in the fall. The librarians like the idea of the Women in IT seminar I proposed and have suggested that we organize it in the Fall. I hope we can tie it together with recruiting a Technovation team and maybe even screening Code Girl. This summer, the main projects I will be working on are a dance camp in July and an intensive adult English course in August, both in collaboration with other PCVs. I also plan to help with the summer camp that the children's library will be doing in June.

I've enjoyed spending more time with local friends recently, too. I was happy for that chance to have my friends from home, Lisa and Jeff, visit and get to meet some of my friends here in my town and also other PCVs. One of my friends, Olesea, and her son even accompanied us on excursions to monasteries and other sites in Moldova (Soroca Fortress, Cricova winery, etc.), and invited us over to make pelmeni! My site mate Valerie and I have gotten to spend some time recently with our local friend Tatiana who is an English teacher here. I also really enjoy my language lessons with my tutor Lucia. She's a great tutor and also a good friend. My librarian counterparts are also great. I mostly see them at work, but the other evening we all went out to eat pizza at a local restaurant for one of their birthdays. It was nice to spend time with them just chatting - and I understood part of what they said! Haha.

I'm currently working on my second tri-annual report for Peace Corps. It's interesting to see which projects have been successful and which didn't work out well. That is helpful information for planning future projects. I would definitely like more collaboration with my counterparts in the planning process for projects, but often they are very busy or my language skills are lacking, so that has been a challenge. Hopefully in year two, we will be able to find a better balance for this.

Around town, lots of things have changed. More streets have been repaved, the church facade has been torn off and it is being refurbished, the stage in the Piața Horelor is nearly done being remodeled, Andy's Pizza has been totally remodeled inside, El Cafe moved to the building where the business incubator is and Family Pizza opened in its place in the Globus mall, the old cinema building was torn down and a Linella grocery store will be built on that site across from the university. I still make comparisons to the building and construction going on in Seattle, although I'm much removed from that now. In most ways I feel like the renovations here are good and beneficial for locals, but I know many people are sad about the cinema being torn down. Such is life, though, I suppose.

Summer plans involve the dance camp and English intensive course, as well as trying to find ways to stay cool from the summer heat. I'll also be saying goodbye to the M31s as they start to COS (Close of Service). Melinda is a Health Educator who lives in a village in our raion, and she will be going back to the U.S. next month. I will miss her visits when she would come into town to buy supplies and groceries! The new group of M33s arrived in Chisinau this week, and I went to the airport with some of my fellow M32s to welcome them when they arrived. It's strange to think that soon the M31s will leave and the M33s will swear in. Time marches on. I hope to take advantage of opportunities this year to see new places in Moldova, work on good projects, and continue to build good relationships with Moldovans and PCVs. These times of transition make me think about the future, and I've started considering what I will do after PC Moldova. Nothing is certain yet, but it's good to start thinking about because I am sure this year will go by quickly. I'm looking forward to seeing what the next year has in store.

Well, that's a quick update and snapshot of this point in my Peace Corps service.

Jeff and Lisa visiting Cahul!

Monday, March 19, 2018

MossbackInMoldova YouTube Channel

Whelp. I have apparently jumped into the leagues of people who have YouTube channels. I never thought I would be one of those people who was all techy and stuff. But honestly, the platforms have become even easier to use lately, and I like that Blogger and YouTube are linked so I can attach videos to my blog easily (that sure wasn't possible when I started using Blogger back in 2005!!). And the video quality on YouTube is much better than when I upload videos to Facebook. So, look forward to more video content on the blog, and if you just want to check out a collection of snippets from my time in Moldova, poftim!

MossbackinMoldova YouTube Channel

Thursday, March 15, 2018

Pause. Breathe.

It has been quite a week. A normal, typical, unusual, at times frustrating, at times beautiful week. Last weekend I felt myself coming down with a cold. I could tell from the onset that it would be brutal but short. I felt miserable, but also felt like it would pass quickly. And here I sit a week later feeling 80% better. Still a lingering cough, but that seems to be par for the course for me lately. In any case, I am so glad it didn't last long. Add to not feeling well trying to learn and speak another language, planning for English clubs that I am desperately trying to make interesting and possibly even meet some of my program metrics, rainy weather so people don't want to come to activities, and the tediousness that is the constant companion of trying to get projects going. Sometimes it feels like trying to push a boulder uphill.

I made myself a promise years ago after my mom died: no regrets. I will never look back and wish I had done something differently, and I will not compare my life to anyone else's. Usually I do a pretty good job of sticking to that. But on the days that I'm rundown and worn out and not seeing the progress I'd like to see in my work, I sometimes see my friends' posts on facebook and wonder if I've made the right decisions. What if I'd gotten a for-profit job so I could have afforded to stay in Seattle? What if I had studied a subject or looked for work in a more lucrative field? Have I made a terrible mistake in pursuing a life of service? Will I be able to afford medical care when I'm old or ever get my student loans paid off? Why am I not married with children, a homeowner, etc.? What is wrong with me? I definitely have these moments occasionally. BUT. I am who I am because of all of the decisions I have made, and I - being the overanalyzer that I am - do not make decisions lightly. Yes, I have not pursued work in a lucrative field, and yes that means I have to deal with the consequences of that choice. But, I made decisions that were true to myself, and that is really all we can do in this life.

Instead of wondering what my life would be like if I had a fancy job and owned a nice home and got to stay in my hometown and go see Hamilton at the Paramount like all my friends in Seattle are doing right now, I have to remind myself that that was not the life I wanted. That is not who I am. The other day as I was walking through mud on my way to a local high school to talk to girls about a program they could participate in to learn how to code a phone app, I had a moment where I realized THAT is exactly what I wanted to be doing at that moment. A year prior, sitting in a cubicle I would have LOVED to be walking that muddy road. And there I was! Living in an unfamiliar place, learning a new culture and language, slowly building community, and getting to encourage young people to pursue their dreams. This is my dream. This is what I dreamed of for so long that sometimes I can't believe I finally get to do the very thing I hoped for. It's slow, difficult work, and often you don't see the impact it has. But I've worked in community development long enough to know that and be ok with it. I just sometimes need to pause for a moment and breathe, and remind myself why I do this. It's what I was made for.

Yesterday, I walked to the piața to buy oranges and some candy from the same ladies I usually buy from. They remember me, and try to speak to me in Romanian even though they speak Russian. On my way back to the library, I saw the chief of the cultural section of the raion council, who had ridden to Cahul with me after our Peace Corps Swearing-In in August. She gave me a hug, and asked how I was doing. Am I happy here? Do I have friends here? Do I like Moldova? Yes. Yes. Yes. And then at the library, I got to meet with an incredible group of young women who I believe are already making an impact in their country. Have all the decisions I have made that led me here been worth it? Yes. Resoundingly yes. I may not get to see Hamilton anytime soon, or ever be able to return to my home city, but this is the life my decisions have chosen, and I would not have it any other way.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

Fericite ziua femeilor!

March 2007. I was by myself in Bucharest and headed out to get dinner. I found a nice restaurant and was seated, looking at the menu when suddenly a server brought me a glass of champagne and a bouquet of daffodils. huh? I was very confused because I didn't know anyone in town, and also didn't order them myself. And I certainly didn't want to pay for something I hadn't ordered. I don't even particularly like champagne, and didn't want to carry daffodils back to the hotel room I'd soon be leaving. What was going on?? I learned that day that there is something called International Women's Day that is celebrated in many countries throughout the world, and it is a pretty popular day to celebrate in Eastern European countries.

March 2018. I now live in Moldova, and ziua femeilor is a big deal! The flower vendors this week were stocked with extra flowers, especially single stems of tulips and roses in cellophane. My Romanian language tutor also told me that flowers cost about double the usual price right now. For a few days, I looked at all the beautiful displays and tried to find out the various prices. Last night, I bought a nice plant with red blooms for my host mom, which I was happy to give her this morning. She also gave me a bunch of beautiful white tulips with red stripes in a glass jar. We exchanged our flowers along with a kiss on each cheek. Here in Moldova, Women's Day is also celebrated as Mother's Day, because Moldova doesn't have the kind of Mother's Day that we celebrate in the U.S.

Although Women's Day wasn't a holiday I grew up celebrating and still feels like a foreign holiday to me, I do like the idea of it. So, happy Women's Day to all the amazing women I have been fortunate to know, and let's celebrate the incredible contribution women make to our world every day!


Flowers from my host mom

Flowers I gave to my host mom 


Flowers in the market in town





Wednesday, March 7, 2018

9 months in Moldova!

I have officially lived in Moldova for 9 months! It's another milestone, and makes me think about what my experience in Moldova has been like so far. In the past month, I have finally started language tutoring again, and I finally feel like I am overcoming the language barrier. It's still a challenge, but not as much, and it's not nearly as stressful as it was for the previous 8 months. I'm really enjoying learning more vocabulary and grammar, instead of being overwhelmed by it. I'm thankful to all of the wonderful language teachers I have had in Moldova. They are the reason I am able to feel at ease here!

In the last few weeks, I've been thinking a lot about the new group of trainees that will arrive here in about 3 months, and how I felt in the months prior to arriving here. So much has happened since then. I will say that I am very thankful not to have to start over from scratch learning a new language all summer this year! However, I won't say that I wouldn't do it again at some point. Just not yet. :) Actually, I'm really hoping that once I feel like my Romanian skills are more solid, I can have some tutoring in Russian. Most people in Moldova speak Romanian and Russian, and there is a sizable population of people in Cahul who only speak Russian. When I go to events here like the Women's Day dance concert last night at the Palatul de Cultură, or even just go to the piața (outdoor market) or check out at the grocery store, I can't communicate well with the Russian speakers. It's not a huge problem, but it would definitely be nice to at least know a little bit. Fortunately, some Russian words are very similar to Croatian/Serbian words, so I can understand a word here and there occasionally (for example, I understood the Russian word for 19 when a vendor at the piața told me the price for the mandarins I wanted to buy), but the words are still different and pronounced differently, so I certainly can't speak Russian at this point.

Now that my language skills have improved, I'm able to communicate better with my host family and my colleagues at the library. This has been great. I still can't express myself in Romanian like I can in English, but it has been wonderful to be able to understand more of what they say to me, and to be able to say more to them than just rudimentary statements. I'm looking forward to getting to know and understand them better in the coming months!

This winter has felt slow in some ways, including the pace of getting projects going. Some days it feels like I'm rushing, and other days it feels like there is no progress at all. That's the hazard out working on projects with a team. But I don't mind. I love working on team projects, and I know that the reality of doing that is that you have to deal with everyone's different schedules. However, I do think we have been making progress. This week my Technovation team had its first meeting! I'm excited to have a fantastic group of young women on my team. They are intelligent and determined, and I believe they will learn a lot and create something great! Additionally, my counterparts and I have nearly completed the grant application for the Documentary Club that we plan to start this spring. We have been trying to coordinate schedules to meet and finalize things like the budget and dates, and I'm hoping we can do that this week so we can submit the application. Then we need to work on publicity and recruiting participants. Hoping that youth here will be interested in participating!

Kids' English has been running smoothly, thanks in large part to my sitemate, Okxy. She is wonderful with the kids and can translate for me when I don't understand what the kids are saying. Thursday afternoons are pretty fun! Youth English is also going well, even though we only have a few people coming each week. This spring, we are adding leadership and service components to the mix, and will have weekly discussion topics including leadership, volunteering, self-confidence, health, the environment, etc. And hopefully by the end of spring, the group will plan and carry out a small service project in our town. I love working with youth, and the students who come to the youth club are wonderful. I hope these topics will encourage and inspire them to see that they have the ability to make a difference in their world. Adult English has somewhat fizzled. I feel bad about that because I know that adults in Cahul want to learn/practice English. But it was a lot of work for me on top of everything else, and just teaching English classes doesn't actually fit the requirements of Peace Corps' Community and Organizational Development program. It was really challenging to host weekly drop-in sessions, and try to plan for any number of people with varied levels of English experience. I know that some people were frustrated that it was too easy, and some were overwhelmed because it was too difficult, and I would never know whether we would have 2 or 20 people. I personally like to do the best I can for people, and what we were doing with the drop-in sessions just wasn't working well for anyone, so I wasn't too sad that it ended in that format. However, I would really like to offer something that would be much more beneficial for people, so I've asked my other sitemate, Valerie, who is in Peace Corps' English teaching program, if she'd like to collaborate on a summer adult English intensive course with me. She was excited about the idea, so I'm hoping we can come up with a great 1-2 week curriculum so people can really get a solid chance to practice and improve their English! And then maybe we can do something similar quarterly or something.